I tend to listen/pay attention to synchronicity so I find myself spoken to in this manner often.
Last night, after my talk with my masculine and feminine side, I felt a book I had shelved awhile back calling to me. I dug out The Cherokee Full Circle and turned to the page I left of on (page 28, the age I am about to turn in a little more than a week). That page mentions Switching and Split-self exercises. Interesting.
Today I received an email blog:
Elder's Meditation of the Day - January 21 | |
"This is the time of awakening to the inner father and the inner mother. Without this we will receive no high initiation; instead we get initiated into darkness. That's because any investigation or revolution without God leads, not to freedom, but to more slavery." | |
--Willaru Huayta, QUECHAU NATION, PERU | |
Honor the Father and the Mother. Father stands for wisdom and Mother stands for feelings. Inside each of us is the Father and the Mother. If we do not honor both, we will not grow in balance. To honor both the Father and the Mother helps our masculine and feminine sides grow. The winter season is a good time to focus on this. This is our season of reflection. Honoring both sides allows us to see the Creator is both Father and Mother. |
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I felt it a sign and decided to try this while alone on lunch break (doing this while alone is probably rather important as it may look strange to speak to ones self while switching between chairs.)
Through this conversation I have stumbled upon a very unsettled male side who seems to disagree or argue with everything my female side comes up with. Why my psyche has done this to itself I do not know. Neither of my parents fought often nor were they argumentative. Perhaps this is something from a past life (inner male would say past lives are a bunch of bull-honky.) It does explain how I have developed such strong arguing skills!
My response was:
"So, I thought what a good day to dialog with my masculine side after receiving these words of wisdom (as seen above). Well... I think he's a big fat jerk so I guess I have some things to work on there =) xo -V
What have I concluded? My inner masculine is the critic, full of ego and the one who insists I doubt everything. I appreciate how he fuels my search for truth with his constant doubting and hope to obtain a balance with this.
Blessings,
V